Saturday, April 2, 2011
Wednesday, March 2, 2011
This was 12 years ago.
I made this card for you when I was 10.
And today you would've been 55 and i'd probably still make you a card.
Happy Birthday Dad
on a brighter note,
my pop up card skills have gotten better compared to 12 years ago really.
Got a few more ideas on how to take it to the next level!
Monday, February 28, 2011
Every single day i can't help but wish that you're still here.
Sometimes I forget that you're not.
Sometimes I forget I don't have a father anymore.
And sometimes forgetting that helps me forget about the pain too.
I wish you were still here
to tell me what to do
to tell me that i'm making the right decisions
to tell me that it's going to be okay.
I just need that support that i've always gotten from you
which has gotten me through 20 years of my life
because at the end of the day,
its your support,
its your words that counts.
Friday, January 28, 2011
Thursday, January 27, 2011
The new year has not been kind so far
Constant messy thoughts
It doesn't seem to be getting any better
You know when you start thinking too much over something so little?
You're not doing anyone and yourself a favor by doing that
My thought process is probably at its most complicated
And when you're trying to process everything at the same time
You get this messy tangled ball of thoughts that you can't unwind
I would love to blame it all on the constant hormonal changes
It has been a year since my dad left us
And you'd think by now things are easy and good
But that one year seems to have just passed in a flash
And i'm thinking if the first year was hard enough to get by
then how would the coming years be like?
Its hard to watch kids riding bikes with their dads at the park
moms taking evening walks with their daughters
because it sucks knowing I won't have that anymore
just the whole idea of a family
it disappears along with it
I know people say that they're always going to be there for you
But i guess sometimes i need them to be physically here
because it really isn't just the same
(It just doesn't get more pathetic than that does it?)
and everyday i keep telling myself the above.