Monday, October 25, 2010

Its easier to lie


Most of the time,
its so much more easier to say that you're alive than saying you're not here anymore.
Because then, there's this awkward silence that follows,
when the other person scrambles in their mind trying to think of something to say next
while still in shock on what they've just heard.

and most of the time the first thing that comes into their minds
is an "oh."
its not the type of "oh" that you'd use for, for an oh really? moment
its the type that says "that's so sad"
but sometimes the lines are blurred with these two meanings

"I'm sorry to here that" follows.

and then another awkward silence.
In this moment I'd probably be holding myself back from tearing up
because having to utter those words in the first place was hard enough
and even though that silence could only be five seconds or ten
it would be just enough time for me to have a flashback.

A change of topic comes next to shake of the awkwardness
though some would continue on to know more 

So when someone asks what does your father do?
I'd just answer "Oh, he's in the bla bla bla"
because its just so much more easier than having to go through all that
Its easier when its with a semi-stranger of course.

Because honestly, I am an awful liar to begin with.

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