Le New Artwork

It's been awhile.
But it's coming back.

Flower's in my eyes

Can I have a moment to show how beautiful the flowers i've planted a month ago turned out?

ok done!

Making Some Cards

 

This was 12 years ago.

I made this card for you when I was 10.

And today you would've been 55 and i'd probably still make you a card.

Happy Birthday Dad

:)

on a brighter note,

my pop up card skills have gotten better compared to 12 years ago really.

 

Got a few more ideas on how to take it to the next level!

rawrarwa! 

:)

I will never let you go

Dear Dad,

Every single day i can't help but wish that you're still here.

Sometimes I forget that you're not.

Sometimes I forget I don't have a father anymore.

And sometimes forgetting that helps me forget about the pain too.

I wish you were still here 

to tell me what to do

to tell me that i'm making the right decisions

to tell me that it's going to be okay.

I just need that support that i've always gotten from you

which has gotten me through 20 years of my life

because at the end of the day,

its your support, 

its your words that counts.

 

 

Practicing my sketching skills with some ink

kinda like how imperfect it is

A house on a hill 

Fields of green

And the blue ocean backdrop

(y)

I need new paint. rawr

On my own, yes it got me nowhere and I can’t do it on my own

The new year has not been kind so far

Constant messy thoughts

Heavy heart

It doesn't seem to be getting any better

You know when you start thinking too much over something so little?

You're not doing anyone and yourself a favor by doing that

My thought process is probably at its most complicated

And when you're trying to process everything at the same time

You get this messy tangled ball of thoughts that you can't unwind

I would love to blame it all on the constant hormonal changes

It has been a year since my dad left us

And you'd think by now things are easy and good

But that one year seems to have just passed in a flash

And i'm thinking if the first year was hard enough to get by

then how would the coming years be like?

Its hard to watch kids riding bikes with their dads at the park

moms taking evening walks with their daughters

because it sucks knowing I won't have that anymore

just the whole idea of a family

it disappears along with it

I know people say that they're always going to be there for you

But i guess sometimes i need them to be physically here

because it really isn't just the same

(It just doesn't get more pathetic than that does it?)

and everyday i keep telling myself the above.